Today’s blog will be very personal and close to my heart. I wanted to write this because today is Valentine’s Day. I want you to cherish those you love and never take them for granted. You do not know how long you may have them. I hope today’s blog will give many of you hope for your loved ones who have taken their lives and left you behind this Valentine's Day. Please forgive them, they did not know what they were doing. Suicide is not the unforgiveable, damning sin that it has been labeled for so long. I’m going to tell you why today. Look up and take heart!
Yesterday, I watched a social media video about a man who attempted suicide in San Francisco. This man had been very depressed and he felt no one cared. He described jumping from the Golden Gate Bridge and instantly regretting his decision as I believe many who attempt and complete suicide do. He goes on to explain that as he hit the water, he broke his back. In that moment under the dark harbor water his heart cried out to God asked God to help him. He shouted these exact words underwater; “God save me! I made a mistake!” He managed to get back to the surface with his arms but was unable to use his legs. A harbor seal came seemingly out of nowhere and stayed with him, keeping him afloat until a rescue boat came to get him just awhile later. They were astonished to see him alive. He was grateful to be alive! God had heard his heart's cry and his literal cry there in the dark cold of the harbor water and answered.
I say all of this demonstrate to you that just as God heard this man cry out for his life, he heard my late husband cry out to him in the darkness of his depression just as he took his life. I am completely convinced that as my late husband, Jeff, entered eternity Jesus joined him in that dark place and illuminated it with light. All of the depression and oppression was gone and only light and love shone about him. Although my husband could not come back to me, I know he is in the safest place he can be, Heaven. I have forgiven him because he did not know what he was doing or even thinking. I have forgiven myself for thinking otherwise. I do not know why some people survive their attempts at suicide and why others are successful at completing them. I do know that God hears them cry out just as he heard this man cry out and my late husband cry out. He heard your family members too! He did not leave them alone. He who heard their cries in the darkness knew their hearts! He knew their struggles and He didn’t hold it against them! Take heart dear ones! I believe we will see many who knew God in Heaven who lost their battle with depression and the oppression of evil in their lives. Do not listen to the lies that tell you otherwise. Liars do not know the mind nor the character of God. Liars do not know your loved one.
My late husband is with Jesus. I believe had this man I spoke of completed his suicide, he would be with Jesus. Many of our loved ones are with Jesus because he heard their heart's cry when they didn’t think anyone else did or could! He forgave them too! They were not alone! Be at peace about this dear ones! His love had already won for them, even when they didn’t know it! His love is still winning for them as they live in His presence. His love is still winning for you as he heals your heart. His love wins every time!
Psalms. 34:18; “The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.”
Romans. 8:38-39; “For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
With much love,