I had a crazy dream earlier this week. In my dream my late husband, Jeff, was alive and we were moving to California. I was stressed because he was adimant that we were financially okay but we were not. Before I woke up, I was crying and talking to my mother in my dream telling her over and over again,"I can't go through that again, I can't go through that again!" I awoke from the dream literally crying and it took me a few minutes to realize it was all just a dream. There was no move to California, there was no bad financial situation. And Jeff was still gone.
As I lay in the dark, collecting my thoughts I said to myself, "Where did that come from?" The truth is that dream came from my brain continuing to process my past - in this case the bad financial place we were in two and half years ago, before Jeff's untimely death.
My brain has been processing my near past (the last 5 - 6 years) for quite some time now, both in dreams and in quiet, prayerful thoughts and I have come to two conclusions: 1) I don't have to repeat my past, 2) I can make different choices. In other words, I don't have to repeat the choices that got me there or the excuses I gave to myself and to other people. As I have said before, I know who I am, Whose I am and who and what I am not. This dream really brought this "home to me" if you will.
I am here to tell you, if I don't have to repeat my past then neither do you. We all have a choice. Repeating our past is a choice, ususally a bad one. Making a new future starting with our present is a choice. You can change your thinking. You can examine yourself and see why you made certain decisions. You can examine your motives and the motives of others and find out why things happened as they did, no matter the situation. It will take prayer, soul searching and the hard work of admitting where you got it wrong but it can be done.
I have chosen to have a different future because I am making good decisions in the present. What is stopping you and why?
I will leave you with Paul's words in Romans 12:2 AMP: "And do not be conformed to this world [any longer with its superficial values and customs], but be transformed and progressively changed [as you mature spiritually] by the renewing of your mind [focusing on godly values and ethical attitudes], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His plan and purpose for you]."
Change your thinking and examine your motives. You don't have to repeat your past. You have a choice and that choice is powerful.
Making powerful choices,